Why do we make friends? Get that close relationship, when in the end, only goodbyes and heartache will be presented. Why did we kiss? Why do we kiss? Was it out of lust? Desire for love? For touch? Was it out of hope for something new? Envy of what others had? What about now? Why do we kiss now? Is it really love? Or are we only pretending? Are we only hoping? Are we only dreaming? Both hurt in the past, only to come to realize more pain is to come. So what now? Make more memories to cry over? Or stop dead in your tracts and start erasing? But why erase when there's been so much joy? But the joy that you cannot keep. So what now!? So many voices in my head telling me different directions, different paths to travel. So many choices, so little time, so many hearts involved, so...much...pain. how to Control? I do not know. Follow my heart? Or my mind? I do not know. My heart says stay, love. My mind says leave, let both lives live and forget. Together they say love yet move on....but none give an easy option. Where my path leads, it's not with, it's without. But with faith, it will work out. One more step. I do not know how, or when, or why. I do not know how. Leap of faith....Leap of faith ...
But what for now? What to do oh what to do!? Neither words nor looks can describe my feelings. What should I do....oh what should I do...
